A small update... I had the dr's appointment, he decided they were going to do the blood patch, and he said his office would call when it was set up..... about a 1/2 hour after I got back to work, they called :P I had to go into the ER and get it done!!!! So now my back hurts, my head feels better and I am resting...

I will update more when I feel up to it...

It is 11:23pm on the night before my neurologist appointment, and I can't sleep!! Not a good thing because I have to go to work early so I still put in my 8 hours. I don't know why I am so nervous about this appointment. I guess it is just wondering what new tortures I am going to have to go through this time!

My mind won't shut down, and I can't make it shut down, I have an urge to just write, so bear with me as I just get words down on the computer screen and try to empty my head.

Words words words words (just kidding)

Alot of things worry me about this appointment. How much longer is he going to let me go through this before he pulls me off work, and takes away that part of my life? I love being a working mom. I love providing for my family, and I love using my mind every day. I love my job, and the work I do, and will I have to give it up before I am ready?

Ugh. I wish I could put the rest into actual words, but the words aren't forming. They are running through my mind so fast, I can't actually process them.

Well, I am going to go and try and get to sleep. Maybe some quiet meditation is in order....